Life Verse
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him,who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
surprise surprise! having confronted a frightening state of insanity that seemed imminent, I didn’t think I’d be in the right mind to think straight, not to mention write an entry unless it was to complain. God has an interesting way of dealing with situations like that,though. Explains why im here and in addition to that- I sound normal too, no?
for weeks ive had to tackle issues of insecurity,of fear & doubt. In fact, the battles within were relentless and they grew in intensity sometimes, other times they just… the fact that they existed alone,I should say- left me in a desperate posture of surrender,yet the refusal of the flesh to let go perpetuated this affliction.
In fact, even during pastor eve’s session on solitude I knew that God had something to say, but He just could’nt come through. There I was, in His presence, in the company of the tribe- and yet none of that made me feel any different than I did out there in the world, where I felt crushed,defeated. over and over again. it was during solitude itself that God was able to speak to me, and his word was timely. I did’nt even have my bible with me, all I had was pen and paper. Well yeah,that- and God’s overwhelming presence evident through the word that was deposited in my heart in just a short 10 minutes or so.
‘…above all else guard your heart,for it is the wellspring of life.’
That was all I penned down during solitude on the flimsy piece of paper that I had.
That was all I really needed. Ive allowed sin to overthrow God’s government in my heart, and that’s the reason why Ive felt so screwed up.
“God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear,though the earth gives way, and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the moutains quake with their surging”
Psalms 46:1-3
God didn’t just stop there,when he told me to cease all that I was doing and turn to His word an hour ago- I knew he was calling me to be still before Him, and for a very good reason.
Because as I read on, in psalms 46:10-11 he declares,
“Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations,I will be exalted in the earth.’ The Lord Almighty is with us, the God of Jacob is our fortress”
And that was the exact word which prompted me to turn to the bible in the first place! pretty cool huh!
as long as God reigns in our hearts, even in times of trial He will be our peace, our strength, our joy. For if our God is with us, who can stand against us? This was a call back into His presence, where I can reside by His grace. And I know that trying times in my walk with Him await, yet even if I do let go – I know im never too far from his reach.
Call upon the name of the Lord, and be saved.