Life Verse
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him,who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
Hearts don’t become stones overnight.
Instead, it is the tragic consequence of rebellion over time.
Every act of rebellion dulls the conscience. Every sinful choice to resist God, to go our own way, to do our own thing, empowers the flesh and increases carnality. And slowly, but surely- the heart starts to stray.
Even before I cross into my second year in np, I realise that it is more than just timely that SP received word from God that the church was to enter a season of fasting and prayer.It is a divine appointment.
The very crux of fasting lies in us being willing to set ourselves apart for God.
This world that you and I live in, it teaches us to live for ourselves.
We are driven by our own interests, compelled to pursue our own passions and dreams.
Nothing’s wrong with that, of course.
Except that when things begin to fall apart, we turn our backs on God.
Except that if we achieve success, we feast on bigger things. Things that, in our desperation- we have allowed to become bigger than God. Our ambitions, our dreams, our desires and even our interests- are but specks of dust to God because He has better plans for our future than we care to look at.We know that this means trouble. And we want to avoid that as much as possible.
But I’ve learnt that the key to growth is brokeness.
That’s the only option available to us should we want to grow in intimacy with God and find peace despite the stroms that surround us. It is a process that calls for us to surrender our ability to do anything, our rights, our desires- and allow God to have free reign in us, to enter our lives with full control and with the permission to do as He pleases. It is a process of restructuring, rebuilding, restoring. And that’s precisely why it hurts, badly. That’s the point though, isnt it? Finding rest in God is not about sailing through the storms of life, but in rising up each time we fall although we are shattered and in dispair- uncertain about His will, but holding on to His promises that it is always in our best interest.
Think you’ve got it all planned out?
Think again.
God has the bigger picture. (;
Self-serving beings.
something to frown upon, but that’s just what we are.
our frantic search for substitutes bring us no closer to our intrinsic desires, of love and identity.
Our indulgance in carnal pleasures and the fleeting spurts of entertainment of our time quickly destroy us, burn us up inside.
It’s synonymous with everyone, anyone.
Don’t You get it?
We’re going up in flames.
But the beautiful thing is, we have hope for salvation.
there’s a way out of this cesspool, the emotional wreckages we’ve landed ourselves in.
No, this is not my attempt at exposition.Rather, it reflects a heart cry. Born of Jadedness, perhaps.
if you and I were as able to discern truth from deception as we sometimes claim to be, the wolrd would’nt be the mess that it is today. but I find strength in my understanding of salvation,of pieceing together and fixing. There is no greater thing which I could hope for, than to live out the very words of God-that he will restore us for greater glory,revealed through the testing of our faith. It means a lot of things. It does.
I’m fresh out of the shower, with a tinge of mint still lingering right beneath my nose. lol. You’d wonder why. I was…well, kinda humming while I was brushing my teeth,and so I guess I got way too excited. Hehe. It was a pretty catchy tune though, I swear! Had dinner @ swens with brandon,zu & louis- walked around aimlessly for ‘bout half an hour and finally settled for starbucks,there were no seats so we chilled outside for another half hour and then decided that it was time to head home. today has been… productive. In fact, one of the most productive days ever since study break started.that’s probably because Boon came over and rendered aid,lest I be at my demise when I realise im staring blankly at my statistics exam paper next Wednesday. Not at all a gratifying experience and situation to be in, no? haha.
I’ll tell you what’s a gratifying experience.
Creative EP360 earphones. :D
hits all the right notes with my ipod man! >3
so much for study break,heh.thus far its just been…break.haha. yes, laugh while you still can gifford.
I don’t know if it’s the laptop, even though the word ‘distraction’ is sprawled across the screen clearly enough for anyone in the right mind to see, well… im, just not in the right mind, apparently! The fact that exams are immenently lying in wait for my blood right after the festive season has not made things easier. In fact I kinda feel repulsed by such a thought- having to sit myself at the table and actually study. So you see, I’ve got plenty of issues to work out when the holidays finally greet me!
Each and every time I sit here, immersed in a world of my own thoughts and staring through the window grills and past the obstructing buildings washed in casual, uninteresting colours- out into the vast open sky… I can’t help but feel a tinge of serenity, as if every breath gets lighter and lighter- untill the burdens that weigh me down leave me, as if He could see right through those eyes, and somehow He knew exactly what needed to be fixed and He works His magic- the very next second im unfettered, free as a bird.
If I could remain wherever such an uplifting experience takes me, I would.
after all, this is the only place my spirit will ever come to find rest in, however crushed it arrives it renews in the hope that God knows, and His will is always for my good- even if that meant suffering, He knows-perhaps better than I would ever, how much I could bear. It never slipped His mind for one instant that I would come to the various testing points in my life, those which you and I know as ‘make or break’.
at last, the day I’ve been unconciously waiting for has leaped right in front of me- the weeks that lie ahead are nothing but crucial and anything but unimportant. For lack of a better word, im sick of routine. Of being unsure, doubtful, frustrated and stripped of the peace which once governed my heart and the certainty which once propelled me into the promises of God. those were powerful times, not that now is any less, but it just feels different. In a good way, this much I know, but there’s something else…there is inconsistency.
there is a reality that’s inevitable, that people will fail you, and you’d do the same.
im off,abruptly as usual. a good movie into the wee hours await me.