Life Verse
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him,who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
Each and every time I sit here, immersed in a world of my own thoughts and staring through the window grills and past the obstructing buildings washed in casual, uninteresting colours- out into the vast open sky… I can’t help but feel a tinge of serenity, as if every breath gets lighter and lighter- untill the burdens that weigh me down leave me, as if He could see right through those eyes, and somehow He knew exactly what needed to be fixed and He works His magic- the very next second im unfettered, free as a bird.
If I could remain wherever such an uplifting experience takes me, I would.
after all, this is the only place my spirit will ever come to find rest in, however crushed it arrives it renews in the hope that God knows, and His will is always for my good- even if that meant suffering, He knows-perhaps better than I would ever, how much I could bear. It never slipped His mind for one instant that I would come to the various testing points in my life, those which you and I know as ‘make or break’.
at last, the day I’ve been unconciously waiting for has leaped right in front of me- the weeks that lie ahead are nothing but crucial and anything but unimportant. For lack of a better word, im sick of routine. Of being unsure, doubtful, frustrated and stripped of the peace which once governed my heart and the certainty which once propelled me into the promises of God. those were powerful times, not that now is any less, but it just feels different. In a good way, this much I know, but there’s something else…there is inconsistency.
there is a reality that’s inevitable, that people will fail you, and you’d do the same.
im off,abruptly as usual. a good movie into the wee hours await me.